Yep, baby boy will be 9 months on Valentines Day. I had this notion that I would be back in the swing of my fitness routine, training all my clients again with a busy schedule and still fitting in my own workouts when I was 3 months postpartum. The idea of taking on a lot of clients again and working out daily was thrown out the window as I walked around my house like a zombie each day from not sleeping the night before.
I thought I would be back in to my pre-pregnancy clothes already. I am SOOOO not even close. Sigh! What I feel like really saying is *$%*, but the yogi in me knows its not good for my mind, body and spirit to think that way. But just for the record, I do, I am human!
So, here I am 9 months postpartum and I am not happy with the shape I am in. Really I should say the “un-shape” I am in. So, I am publicly outing myself. I am saying this “out loud” so every other mom out there who feels the same way knows they are not alone.
But let me tell you…..my time has come. Fat be gone. Muscle toning…hello! I want to be able to hold plank position for minutes and not once shake. I want to be able to have my cardiovascular endurance back. I want to not be the out of shape mom who is at my kids soccer game. I really want back in a bikini….but I am not sure if I will ever brave this, fat or no fat, with the amount of stretch marks red marks of honour my belly has.
So today is the day, well actually tomorrow, as I am now going to bed so this day is over for me. Active living say hello and please welcome me back. It was me, not you, we never really broke up in my mind. I just took a sabbatical. Food…..we have an issue. I like you but its all about moderation.
So who is with me? We need to support each other. I will continue to try to update this blog as much as I sanely can between work, running to playdates, and enjoying my time with a child who doesn’t like to sleep 
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I have a game plan, as a certified personal trainer & wellness consultant I know what I should be doing and hope that my mind stays focused, as I get motivated to move my body. I will share with you my ups and downs if you share yours….okay?
2 Responses to Reality Check, Holy Crap!
Amanda I am so right there with you!!! I am sick of wearing clothes that my husband has no problem fitting into. My youngest will be 9 months on the 25th. I would be happy with myself if I just managed to walk 30 min. three times a week (to start). That is asking a lot for me. I have never liked exercise and I have an overindulgent relationship with food. That is when my two year old and 8.5 month old gives me a chance to sit at eat
It sounds like we are all feeling the same pain. I never really ate many sweets until the last two months of pregnancy. My son turns 4 months today and I’m always wanting something sweet. UGH! I must say I have managed some how to get 5lbs away from my prepregnancy weight, however it doesn’t look as such. I still can’t fit into any clothes as my body seems to be permanently altered. I’m searching for the motivation to (like Julianne) walk at least 30min 3 times a week to start and eat less, but I have not been victorious yet. Hopefully we can all band together and win this fight.